The past tense of adapt

To make (something) suitable for a new use or purpose; modify; Me

Due to trauma, I really do not remember all that much about growing up, however, two things do stick out: All the traveling I did, and constantly being told I was wrong and had to change.

Be quieter, do not talk to strangers, Do not stick out, What you want does not matter, think of people first… blah blah blah, et cetera. But you know what, I did all that. The funny thing is,  now that I am an adult and off on my own, everyone tells me the opposite.

I am too quiet, I do not talk to anyone, I am not outgoing, I never voice my opinion, I never think about what is best for myself, and so on. I used to think that I was wrong, and that you were trying to change me for the better, but now I see that you were just training me to be the least amount of work possible.

So now, here I am in college trying to figure out what kind of man I am even supposed to be. Everyone around me has a general idea, now they ae just honing in on exactly who. I have to start from scratch, from below that actually. First I have to chip away at everything you trained me to think, then I have to figure out me. Who I want to be, who I really am.

So for all you young people out there reading this, be yourself. Do not worry about if other people think that it is stupid, or dumb, or annoying. Do not change  for anyone. Be you, the friends that you make as yourself will be the truest friends you have. If you stay true to who you really are, you will not regret it, and if you do not know who you are yet, that is okay, you have all the time in the world.



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