Family “vacation”

I had to take an entire week off work to go to my step-mother’s family reunion in North Carolina. I f you have not been following, I hate both my father and step-mother. It will be two days at the reunion, and then five days at a beach, so that will be nice at least. But still, me with a half-sister, step-sister, and sister? No thank you.
I leave tomorrow around two P.M., but I have not even begun packing yet, and now my anxiety is through the roof. My sentences are barely flowing together right now. I get really bad trip anxiety,, and that, combined with the autism spectrum disorder, causes me to shut down entirely half the time. I am also guessing I will not sleep tonight, as I never do before a trip which will affect my bipolar, probably sending me spiraling down into a depressive phase..,
Everything is just, ugh, right now


Fuck Bipolar Disorder

First, let me start by saying that I am so, so sorry for having been gone so long. To sum up why, I went home from university (8 hours away), Got a job that allows me to have a shit ton of hours, and have been fighting off a depressive phase the whole time.
Basically with my bipolar I have to fight every day not to slip into an elated manic state, or slip into a deep depressive state. I can feel myself trying to go into that dark depressive state again, but I am fighting it tooth and nail.
I have started taking my medicine as prescribed, I get exercise, my sleep is routine, and my eating is much healthier. I am honestly not sure what to do, I have some situations beyond my control that really are not helping.
But anyways, that is my brief rant about how much I hate this stupid fucking disease. Thank you if you read it.

This is why you should not Procrastinate

The reason I have not been posting much lately is because I am in the middle of exams. So much fun right? I actually only have one left though, tomorrow at eight in the morning. After that though, my first year of university is officially over.

Unfortunately, I made the mistake of procrastinating studying for my last exam, and now I have to read two books and write a 2000+ word research paper before Eight. So, well, seven and a half hours. Thank God for speed reading though.

If you are curious, my paper is on the history of psychology and how it has shaped America socially, politically, and economically.
So learn from my example and do not procrastinate important tasks, like I am still doing now, by writing this…..

Life Update: 1 May 2018

Well, it is so dry here that the inside of my nose cracked… random nosebleeds out of nowhere, with no warning… I mean, it gushes, it is bad. But anyways, I am not doing too bad actually. Exams start Thursday, Wednesday is dead day. I took an exam yesterday, I am taking another today, one Thursday, and finally one on Monday.

In other news, I am on my second night of no sleep, not fun. but I have to pass psych… which means late night studying because for some reason that is when I focus the best. Oh, I also have a six page research paper due Monday… No internet allowed for research either…

Not much else to say, I am actually taking my meds like I am supposed to also. I still think you guys are loco for following me, I am really not an interesting person.

Stay safe friends

Improving Memory

One major way to help retain information is to ensure it is fully coded, the following can help make sure you avoid forgetting due to encoding failure.

  • Use Elaborative Processes:
    • Make the information more meaningful by connecting it back to preexisting knowledge.
  • Be selective:
    • Practice selective markings in your texts and use marginal notes to further summarize ideas.
  • Organize:
    • Organizing class notes and summarizing chapters, or parts of chapters, can be quite helpful. Consider summarizing your summaries so that the overall network of ideas becomes clearer and simpler.
  • Consider whole versus part learning:
    • For shorter material, memorize it as a whole. If it is a lot of material, memorize it in smaller chunks.
  • Beware serial position:
    • If you have to memorize something in order, you will tend to forget the items in the middle
  • Encode retrieval cues:
    • Knit meaningful cues into your memory code to help you retrieve it when you need it. If I put something shocking, like, FUCK, you are now much more likely to recall this information if you are once again shocked by that.
  • Overlearn:
    • Memory is greatly improved when you study beyond bare mastery. Even if you know all the information, keep learning more.
  • Use spaced practice:
    • Alternate between short study sessions and brief resting periods.

Now that I have covered how to encode and save the information, you still have to be able to retrieve those memories when you want them, so here are some ways to help you do just that:

  • Rely on retrieval practice:
    • Try to remember what you just read by rephrasing the information into your own words. If you spaced your practice and overlearned, then you will be fine, just trust the retrieval system.
  • Use a strategy to aid recall:
    • Successful retrieval is usually the result of a planned search of memory. Here are some hints for recapturing context and jogging memories
      • Say or write down everything that you can remember that relates to the information you are seeking. No matter how trivial.
      • Try to recall events or information in different orders.
      • Recall from different viewpoints.
      • Mentally put yourself back in the situation where you learned the information, try to recreate the event. smell, wind, everything.
  • Extend how long you remember:
    • When learning new information, practice retrieval repeatedly. gradually lengthen the amount of time between tests.
  • Mind your sleep:
    • Sleep or rest after studying to reduce interference.
  • Mind your hunger:
    • People who are hungry almost always score lower on the memory test.


Reflective Learning

Reflective learning occurs when you engage in deliberately reflective and active self-regulated study. You will learn more if you mindfully reflect on what you are experiencing. The following are some ways to turn passive studying into reflective learning:

  • Set specific, objective learning goals.
    • Begin each learning session with specific goals in mind. What knowledge or skill are you trying to master? What do you hope to accomplish?
  • Plan a learning strategy.
    • How will you accomplish your goal? Make daily, weekly, and monthly plans for learning, then put them into action.
  • Be your own teacher.
    • Effective learners silently give themselves guidance and ask themselves questions. What are the main points? What do I remember? What do I not understand? What do I need to review?
  • Monitor your progress.
    • Reflective learning depends on self-monitoring. Exceptional learners keep records of their progress toward learning goals. They quiz themselves, use study guides, and find other ways to check their understanding while learning.
  • Reward yourself.
    • Reward your efforts whenever you reach one of your goals.
  • Evaluate your progress and goals.
    • Frequently evaluate your performance records and goals. Where do you need improvement? Do your goals need to be revised?
  • Take corrective action.
    • If you do not reach your goals, you may need to adjust how you budget your time, or change your learning environment.